Suicide

I believe that suicide is not so much about someone wanting to kill him or herself. As it is a desperate attempt to escape their current situation in life.

Some do manage to change, while some retreat into substances or other addictions. Others will do the next closest thing to suicide and runaway cutting themselves off entirely from everything they know and their current world to try to start again somewhere new.

In this world or the next, may they find what they were looking for.

Chain of Knowledge

Finals time again and truthfully, sometimes it feels that all these classes and clinicals have come together nicely to form links in a chain of knowledge to be accessed when needed.
Then again other times, like when trying to take a test and accessing those links and chains of information. It feels like some deranged person has entered my mind with a set of bolt-cutters and annihilated those links.

Lost in Life

Almost forgot about blogging, although probably like most people who are excited about starting a new life and journey in school you get lost. All the sudden you are inundated with work, work and work. Not going to lie, school is kicking my ass and at times doubts creep in about finishing. It is fu***** hard all the work of graduate school.   

I could just go back to travel nursing with no rent or worries. Zero bills, free insurance and travel. That sounds wonderful…. Truthfully, travel nursing has some drawbacks. Like meeting people who become distant friends as soon as you take the next assignment. Or meeting someone you really care about and then they are gone.

Current stress 100%, travel nursing stress 90% less than that. What to do?

Health care law explained

Being in health care, people want your opinion of the proposed health care law, and even want you to explain it. Not having read the over thousand pages of law, including all the added pork Congress members and Senators seem to add to everything. Then this short video does a good job of explaining it while remaining unbiased. Just like the bill, some will like it, some will not.   

Military soldier kills 16

A military individual kills 16 people in Afghanistan and people are surprised. I am just surprised this does not happen more often.

We recruit hundreds of thousands of these young men and women out of their homes. We train them to be killing machines with minimal thinking or questioning involved. We tell these kids when to eat, drink, sleep and shit. Then send them 7000 miles away to live in close quarters away from their families and friends, in a country where they are mostly not welcomed.

Pretend you are not involved, but our tax dollars built this soldier/machine, so it is your fault.

This is not different from someone flying an unmanned Predator drone thousands of miles away, then hitting a button and killing innocent people at a wedding party. Or on the other hand, the President saying drop the bombs to start “Shock and Awe”, killing untold numbers.

This soldier was older, but it does not change the fact that this US machine broke down,  and since we paid for it, it is our fault and not a surprise.

To be continued...

It is not the end; in fact, it is only the beginning of the journey.

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Evil Stepmother

It is not school and working part time that has been consuming all my time. Longer than I have been in school we have also been fighting a court battle over the estate of my late father. The evil stepmother description fits this situation well. His estate that was put in trust, then disappeared and she is refusing court orders to provide an accounting and hiding facts. The longer she can drag this out and cost us money, the more she thinks we will disappear. Not going to happen, but that is how she deals with problems.

The problem is it involves 3 states and jurisdictions. I have gone to Oregon several times and tomorrow when I should be putting the final additions on a research paper for submission, and preparing for tests, instead I will be flying to Nevada for a 9am court appearance. Next week back to Oregon for another hearing. These are the frustration I would love to blog about and get out of my head, but then again I become more hesitant of who is reading this and giving details about our case.

Life pulls us all in multiple directions and tests us regularly, hopefully this is just another life lesson.

Fork in the Road

I drive by this sign often and sometimes wonder if I should just stay in the other lane today.

Kind of like life and the decisions we make, it is not about looking back, but more about going forward.

So often I do not post now because I use Google Docs, Gmail, Blogger, Google + and have a YouTube account. Actually, Google has well over a hundred products that they have decided to tie together, which makes it easy to figure out who you are. Therefore, like many bloggers if I cannot say things because others know me, so I am debating if blogger is not the right tool to keep using.    

The Shallows

Is it pick on teens week? This was reported on WebMD out of the University of Winnipeg, and finds that teens who text a lot tend to be more selfish. Well, they said more concerned with wealth and image, rather than morals. I'll hold me comment because I see plenty of so called adults who text more than they talk.

The Shallows by Nicholas Carr, referred to in the article. It is an interesting topic and book we discussed in-depth last year about the ever-increasing short attention span we are developing related to technology and the Internet.   

Please don't care.

A little thanks to the USPS.

A plastic bag in my mail with a crumpled ripped up letter inside. Taking the mangled letter out of the bag and flattening it I notice what it is. The bag apologized for the inconvenience the postal service had caused, along with other words of nothingness.
I do not care if the occasional letter gets mangled, especially if it another credit card ad or monthly bill. However, this piece of mail they randomly destroyed was my yearly W-2 form. Ripping the bottom out of a folded document produced four separate pieces of my State and Federal forms. Maybe I will do my taxes the old fashion way this year instead of electronically. I will mail my excessively stapled and taped up mess of paperwork to the IRS this year so they can have a laugh too.